"My girlfriend's niece was getting baptized, and her family came in to town so she wanted me to meet them for the first time. We were sort of getting serious. And I did meet them for about 11 seconds. Literally the rest of the weekend I was gambling. The worst part is I really planned to be there with her family and everything, but I kept saying 'Just 10 more minutes' again and again and then it was way too late.
For years, craps was the only thing I was thinking or talking about.
I played craps 5, 6, 7 days a week. I didn't hide it and most of my friends at the time also shot craps. I loved the rush of the game, the sights and sounds, and I loved buying things for my friends when I was up. For years, craps was the only thing I was thinking or talking about.
I started having trouble sleeping because I'd win a little, then lose a little more, over and over until I was really in the hole. I thought about quitting but craps was so much a part of who I was, I didn't know who I would be if I stopped and it scared me.
After that weekend with my girlfriend's family, I thought about who I was turning into and it disgusted me. I had to do something, so I went to Gambler's Anonymous but I had low expectations because I thought we wouldn't have much in common. After a few meetings though, I realized we had everything in common.
It's been 6 years since I gambled. That girlfriend is now my wife, and most of my close friends are people from G.A. I finally have some sense of control over my life."
It's been 6 years since I gambled. That girlfriend is now my wife, and most of my close friends are people from G.A.